April 24, 2015

Plant seeds, they’ll grow.

The months of January, February and March were dead. No work. I went crazy with anxiety. As an actor/writer/director/freelancer/artist I know the pattern but nonetheless, I never get used to it. Those long, quiet stretches are always moments were I question my choices: should I go on as an artist? Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? Why is the phone not ringing? Do I want this for the rest of my life?

Then I realize these stretches of nothingness are amazing moments to create. But anxiety gets in the way of creativity and I go in operation mode. I become a ninja and I focus on planting seeds. That means the following:

  • update English CV
  • update French CV
  • upload new CV’s to ACTRA page, UDA page, ARRQ page, Equity page, agent’s page, Entre Acteur page, Casting workbook page and any other media page existing
  • Edit my English video demo
  • Edit my French video demo
  • Upload new demos to ACTRA page, UDA page, ARRQ page, Equity page, agent’s page, Entre Acteur page, Casting workbook page and any other media page existing
  • Record and edit my English voice demo
  • Record and edit my French voice demo
  • Upload new demos to ACTRA page, UDA page, ARRQ page, Equity page, agent’s page, Entre Acteur page, Casting workbook page and any other media page existing
  • Change email signature to add links to the above to look more professional but mostly, to make it really easy for any casting director to see your demo. After all, it is only one click away!
  • Follow up on distribution for my second short film which I wrote, directed and produced. Find out the movie was accepted for distribution (YAY!!!) and follow up on posters, invitations and any other marketing detail.
  • Open a facebook page, invite people and only get 15% of your friends to like.
  • Make note of those friends. They are good ones!
  • Follow up on my feature film and find friends willing to read and give me constructive notes.
  • Correct my feature film script based on those notes.
  • Get back to working on my 3rd short film.
  • Work on the play I started writing 2 years ago.
  • Follow up on various employers to let them know I am free and available to work.
  • Oh, and let’s not forget the not so fun “do your taxes, pay your taxes” and “do your GST/QST, pay your GST/QST”.

Turns out I was quite busy during that 3 month stretch although no pay check actually came along with all that work.

Then April arrived and I realized all my efforts were worth it. April was booked from the 1st to the 30th. I know the new trend is to thank the universe for all its abundance, but the reality is that we work hard to make our living.

I have planted a whole garden in winter and saw it flourish in April.

Let’s just hope the plants keep growing…

 

Natalie

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